Two nights from now at this time, I won’t be in Dhaka anymore. I know time flies but it’s still hard to get my head around Wednesday’s departure, maybe because time and space here have qualities here unlike those I’ve ever known. Both real, my friend Ann tells me, and unreal. In ways it has been profoundly unsettling and awesomely settling. There’s been so much to see, and so much more I know I’ve missed. And will miss. So I’m wandering through into my last day here with an unexpected feeling of loss, for a distinct place that has captivated me and for the strangers who have quickly become friends, will quickly become strangers again. The natives and the other VSO volunteers that have both broken and filled my heart in ways I never could have imagined. And indeed, some of it may be imaginary, but I’ve been to the most beautiful place. Thank you Dhaka, all of you.
And to Alta, who runs the kitchen at the office, a shout out for feeding me so well almost every day for lunch, for bringing me coffee when she knew I needed it most. When I first arrived I thought I would have to live on rice and dal here with varying degrees of enthusiasm. But I like rice and I like dal , which are definitely staples, and I like spicy and I eat little meat and generally find compatibility with different foods. It’s one my favorite things about experiencing different places. Probably at one point, I made the transition from reveling in the new cuisine to looking around for something more than a rice-dal based lunch combination. But I must have made it right back again, because I’ve quite happily settled into my daily rice-dal-vegetable lunch the
way I settled into my dutch lunch of broodje kaas almost each day for a decade during my 10+ years of life in Amsterdam, feeling a safety in the familiarity of the routine and in the comfort of being at home in culture. And of understanding it through its flavors as they suffuse the lunch table and beyond, the fragrant lime, chili liberalized, late breakfast samosa and shingara from the food stall on the corner,
paratha and nan like I only suspected they might taste at home in their world. The best chicken, ever. Duck steeped in hill tract chili. Coconut. Endlessly lovely, little feasts.
So the night before my last night winds down, on a badminton-with-two-of-my-favorite-new-stranger-friends note in a night garden driveway. With the last of departure things to take care of tomorrow, I may not get a chance to update again before I head out. But as I make my way back, and in the coming weeks ahead, I’m sure there will be some final posts to come.















